I'm Going Back To The Start

First off, I celebrated my four year diabeticversary on Saturday. Four years, whew. Some days I forget I even have it, others I've tossed my pump down the hallway in frustration. (Note: I don't advise throwing a $7000 medical item. Ever. I also never said I always used my brain.) Even though I don't always like dealing with it, I am thankful for the impact it has made on my life. No one ever said this life was going to be easy, and thank God it isn't. Because I'd be INCREDIBLY bored.

So that was this weekend. Didn't really celebrate too much except for some awesome cupcakes for the "normals" (all relative) and some special ones for me and those who dared to try them.

In other news, another momentous occasion is soon on the horizon.... I'm going back to school on Monday! I'm excited, scared, vomitous and most importantly, ready. I am so ready to get back into the swing of things. However, you know those first day jitters? I feel like catepillars infested my stomach, hatched and now are swarming around has giganto butterflies. Dramatic? I know. But I'm trying to make a point here! For me it's nerve-racking because I'm starting mid-year, commuting and completely changing my major. Also, the school is literally twice the size of Scranton. Plan of action: get there early and try not to get lost on the first day. But we'll see.

Honestly, I can not believe I'm starting all over again. It was rough the first time, but to have to do it again, frankly I don't want to. Today was the first day I realized that I'm not going back to Scranton. And it stung. A lot. I loved the school and the people there. I always loved the sense of community at Scranton. I just hope I can find it here too. I am super duper excited to start my psych classes though. I am not however looking forward to Spanish. It's been a good year since classes, so I am a little rusty, to say the least. Well nothing like diving in with both feet!

I'd also like to make a general note to the public: My pancreas is getting a complex.

If you understand that then, kudos to you.

Peace, Love & God Bless

Note to self:

Sometimes I feel like I forget to live.

It's similar to forgetting to breathe. Ever try it? You may have, but it's always been voluntary. You never clutched your chest because you simply "forgot" to breathe at that moment. Forgetting to live is similar. I feel like there's so many moments that happen every single day, that keep us alive, yet we choose to ignore them or are to busy to notice.

I hate when I do that. Lately I've been preoccupied with my transfer situation. Although I'm happy to report that I am transferring to Southern CT, I still have so much to complete in a weeks time. It's taken so much of my energy that lately I've just not been the same. But then I realize that it will happen. Just as it always does. Today I wished I stopped to enjoy the beauty of the sun rising over the snow-glistened trees, or really appreciated an excited phone call I received this morning. Or even relishing the moments that I feel truly loved, just in this past hour.

My wish for everyone today is that you appreciate the moment. It is so cliche. But seriously, don't forget to live. I do it all the time. But everyone feels best when they're joyful, loved or in awe. Those are the moments that stick with you. I feel overwhelmed when I simply remembered how much I am love and how much love I have for others.

So add it on your everyday to-do list. Life is so worth living when you actually remember to do it.

Peace, Love & God Bless

Dear Friend

Honest, I was going to go to sleep. Then I remembered that I had to let the world in on a little secret.

WATCH DEAR JACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know some of you may be saying that my use of exclamation points might be excessive, but then again, you clearly haven't watched this movie yet. I used this movie to cap off a two day movie marathon I had due to inclement weather. A perfect excuse to be a couch potato. I then subjected my mother to a string of bawl-worthy movies. For example: The Notebook, A League of Their Own and then A Walk to Remember. All really good movies. However nothing got to me like Dear Jack.

Now I know I'm a huge lover of Jack's Mannequin. And I could go on and on and on about how truly awesome the band is, and how you should check out there music right now, also, they are the nicest people on the face of this Earth, and if you really like them, you also like Something Corporate, and that my friend has a huge thing for Bobby Raw Anderson..... Ok I'm stopping. =) Honestly, I truly believe that anyone who likes music and/or a great documentary, will love this movie.

Note: I will use love to describe this movie. Not enjoy. If you enjoy this movie, you are a very sadistic person. Not that I'm judging or anything. This movie defines hope. I can't recall one moment where hope is not present. And that is why I adore this movie. Yes, it is about a musician's fight with leukemia, but through all the madness, it's a story of love and strength, and one again... hope. Some of it was actually taped by Andrew McMahon (lead singer of Jack's Mannequin and Something Corporate) on his own accord. It doesn't leave anything out. You see almost everything. Another perfectly, awesome reason why to watch this.

It's in limited release, but you can find it at various Barnes & Nobles or Borders. Or also in my own DVD library. I will gladly lend it to people, because that is how much I truly believe that everyone should see it. I was so overwhelmed by the whole movie that I had to let you guys know about it. Another great reason to watch it: some of the money goes to his foundation of the same name.

So let me know if you've seen it and/ or any thoughts. Or let me know about song suggestions. =) Shoutout to BRice and Chelsie: YOU'RE FAMOUS NOW!


Peace, Love (Hope) & God Bless

Who I Am

First off, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope everyone had a wonderful, stupendous and safe beginning to their new year. I for one had an amazing time. I played out in the snow, made a fort and a slide down a flight of stairs, and most importantly spent it with those I love. Definitely the most fun I have ever had on a new year's eve/day.

Secondly, I apologize for not posting sooner. But what better way to start the new year off with a blog post. I was waiting to post so I could announce some official news, and then the holidays hit. Love holidays, do not love the busy-ness. Oh well.

Now that I've peaked your interest about the official news, I should probably say something about that..... I'm transferring! It's probably old news to some, but I decided to stay close to home for obvious reasons and I can't stand being away from school so I'm transferring to a school around my area. Not sure where yet but I will be attending for Spring '10. I'm also switching my major to psychology and the Pre- physician's assistant track. Just a little update on my life =)

As most of you know, I deeply adore the Jonas Brothers. The youngest one, Nick, recently came out with his first single from his solo cd. It's called "Who I Am" and I seriously recommend listening to it. It's very soul-y. Honestly it's really amazing. Anyways, he came out with a video for it yesterday and it was NOT what I expected at all. I think it has an awesome concept to it. The basic gist is that each person has more to them that meets the eye.

Now the reason for me drawing attention to it is that Nick Jonas has a sign that say "Who I Am" and flips it around, and the first time it says brothers. The second time it says "Diabetic" and it goes back and forth through different people. And I just thought that was so inspiring. I mean I am a diabetic. That is who I am. But I don't solely think that of myself. I'm a sister, daughter, friend, blessed, Catholic, funny, inspired, and also a diabetic. There's so much more that meets the eye and I believe it's an awesome concept. Kudos on the video. It really is a nice reminder to remember that everyone is going through their own personal struggles.

Here's a link to watch the video:
"Who I Am" by Nick Jonas

Enjoy. Leave comments if you'd like

Peace, Love and God Bless